Well, where to start? Let me tell you abit about me.
So I’m 28 with a 9 year old who has learning difficulties (sensory processing disorder, developmental coordination disorder and suspected ASD) amongst some other issues. I’ve suffered with depression and anxiety throughout my life, it started in my teenage years brought on by childhood trauma.My teenage years were pretty dark and I relied heavily on drink and drugs. By 17 I was coming out of it and shortly after got pregnant.
Since having my child I went back to college and eventually university and finished with a 2.1 so my life was on the up…or so you would think.
I jumped from job to job going back into the care sector, after a few months I got job working in housing and absolutely loved it until my boss went and I got a new one. The new one was awful and blamed everyone else for her shortfalls. It was that stressful that i ended up leaving and bounced around a few jobs until i found one that i enjoyed. My new job is only 2 days a week but that is enough for me.
If you have pcos you might experience this too- I’m always tired, whatever I do totally drains me. Dont get me wrong its possibly another issue too but it’s hard work. Anyway, back to the life story.
Throughout this time I’ve had the same partner, 11 years! It hasnt been easy and we’ve split up a few times but been solid for the last 7 years. To be honest I’m surprised we’ve managed it as my mood swings are terrible and combined with the depression I can be the most awful human being going. Having said that we’re in a good place now.
Not long after I had my son I had a coil fitted for about a year but that was the only protection we used. I always wanted more kids, a house full would be good 😂 but my partner wasn’t too keen (btw he knew we wernt using any contraception for years) but we never got pregnant.
About 3 years ago now, he decided that he actually did want more kids and we’ve been actively trying…still no baby, no pregnancy. The doctors won’t do much as I need to loose weight, ha like that’s ever going to happen. They have put me on exercise referral programmes but I have lost 0lbs 😒
The whole situation is really getting me down especially when nearly every day someone you know announces they are pregnant with their 5th child. I’m happy for them but it’s so frustrating when your body is working against you.
Anyway, that’s pretty much a life summary. I’ll go more in depth and talk about the day to day issues but I just thought it would help to give abit of background info.