So I’m going to consider this a practise month! Theres been a bit of progress though.
Well it started ok. I’m eating less chocolate and cake than before and my meals have been healthier. Cant say I’ve been really strict because I havnt been I’ve been keeping track of my calories and they’re always within my limit so that’s good. Just need to cut down on carbs!
Actual workouts haven’t really happened 😁 I mean they did for a few days. I was doing exercise dvds and boxing but overdone it and was in agony for nearly 2 weeks everytime I moved. I have done alot more walking so that’s a bonus. Got an efit watch to keep me on track and to be fair I walk more than any of my friends so impressed with myself for that.
Has been better, again the watch analyses my sleep and most nights I’m getting 6-7 hours although I feel like I need 10 🙈 still struggling to get to sleep and wake up on time but it’s getting better and I feel more refreshed.
Not gonna lie, I’ve had some knock backs lately which havn’t helped. Start to think positively and think I’m getting somewhere only to be let down which makes it even worse.
I’ve struggled with fertility, as I’ve said before you have your monthly (or whenever) period to let you know your not pregnant which is disappointing in itself. Then this month I was finally all set for gyne. Turned up to my appointment, looked at me and said we need to weigh you. Then took me into a room and no lie said ” you need to lose 8 stone before we will even consider seeing you, heres some leaflets about weightloss, have a nice day”. Why they felt the need to let the referral go through just so I could do a 2 hour round journey to be humiliated I don’t know.
Theres been a few other things that have got me down too, but I think I could have managed these had I not of had the gyne incident. I’ve recently started seeing a mental health team just because I am so low and even they commented on how “flat” I was. Told me to go to the drs immediately to get some pills. That’s another issue I dont want to be pumped full of pills! Why is that the answer to everything?! So I’m just going to keep battling through. Booked a mini family holiday so we can have some time and space and come back with a fresh head 😁